Journal 2018 Entry #2

 October 14, 2018


I can’t really remember what did happen today. I think it is like a typical day to me. Sunday moments, staying and relaxing in our house. Wait, I just remember it now. I return to my old self, being good and hoping that I can someday achieve what I imagined these past few days. I am more confident that I can do it because I think they can understand and support my dreams even though it is impossible for a young girl who doesn’t have English skills and confidence to talk to the public. I can do it; I have to because this is one I have a dream to become a successful lawyer. 

I forgot I also checked the one I answered while I was in the hospital last week when my grandmother was hospitalized. I didn’t expect that I have many wrong answers since it is an elementary section, but I was wrong. Even in the beginning section, I decided to improve my grammar and answering skills. I have to admit and know my capability to improve it. I have more times to do it step by step. I plan things to enhance my difficulty by practicing more and more until I can say that I am now ready to take any exam. I know myself very well, and I don’t lie to myself that I now understand it. 

I have to finish it this October to proceed to other grammar questions, but I also have to enjoy my life. I like to have time for Korean dramas and other videos on youtube that I want because I believe that you don’t have to limit yourself to the things that make you happy, even if they might distract you from your goals. As I said, I know myself, so I know that my first priority is to achieve my goals. I have to remind myself every day that this is my first priority, second, and so on. 

I think I write enough to share my whole day. This is the first time that I feel happy writing something even though I am not so good at writing, which is why I am doing it to improve it. Always remind yourself that you have to do it because you want to achieve something. 

Goodnight loves. See you tomorrow.


Your, 

Cathy

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