My Story

 October 17, 2018 I am very productive this whole day since I am more energetic and happy at the same time. I don’t know why but I am glad. I really enjoyed reviewing it today. I think it is because it is simple and I am happy. I guess I had happy pills then because I didn’t know I spent much time answering questions. Its means that I am a bit ready to take Phisat and EPT. I hope so, but I know and believe that I can remember yesterday I told myself that I have to think to myself, even others, not to erase the negativity and always remember the positive sign. Today, I also enjoyed singing using the Go Sing app on my phone. I am a frustrated singer, but I believe practice makes perfect. I didn’t dream of becoming a singer; I just wanted to sing because I feel good singing and listening to music. I love singing old English songs, a song that has a beautiful meaning, like my theme song “Take me to your heart” by Michael to rock, I think I forget. Yes, it is funny, but it is true I have a

 Oct 16 “Attention” is a word that makes the person confident like I am today. I am lucky if there is someone who gives me attention even if I didn’t request it. Yes, I always get the attention of someone, but I don’t know why I have? Why do I get their attention? One of them is my first love, “SJK” I got his attention on the first day we met; at first, I was not attractive to him, but even all my friends are beautiful to him because he is handsome, tall, and fair. Since then, I still have a crush on “Val,” and he has been the only one I am attracted to for over 7 years. It stops when I always see “SJK’ and know him more. Yes, he is the ideal man of all girls, and I am one of them. When I am into “Val,” my friends say he has a crush on me because he is always curious about me and gets my attention every time we meet. I didn’t believe them because I knew it was impossible since he was handsome and I was ugly, but in a few days, I little believe it because he always got my attention and

 October 15 Today, I am proud of myself because I stop something that I do that makes me angry to myself. Now, I can already say to myself that I am now changing into someone that I can be proud of in the future. Yes, everyone also sees that I am changing, but I don't because I can see it to myself now. It's different because I now feel light and happy. I hope to continue it even though I know it is a little tricky because I am terrible at the temptation to do it. I have to remember that this is good and awful, and I can save time by doing important things to it. Like prioritizing my dreams over my wants, speaking of my goals this morning, I am apprehensive because I can concentrate on studying. I want to eat and watch dramas that learning, but I stop myself, so instead I take a nap so that I can focus after that, and it is effective because, after 2 hours of napping, I can concentrate on studying, and I feel that I am not learning but discovering something, I liked that feelin

 October 14, 2018 I can’t really remember what did happen today. I think it is like a typical day to me. Sunday moments, staying and relaxing in our house. Wait, I just remember it now. I return to my old self, being good and hoping that I can someday achieve what I imagined these past few days. I am more confident that I can do it because I think they can understand and support my dreams even though it is impossible for a young girl who doesn’t have English skills and confidence to talk to the public. I can do it; I have to because this is one I have a dream to become a successful lawyer.  I forgot I also checked the one I answered while I was in the hospital last week when my grandmother was hospitalized. I didn’t expect that I have many wrong answers since it is an elementary section, but I was wrong. Even in the beginning section, I decided to improve my grammar and answering skills. I have to admit and know my capability to improve it. I have more times to do it step by step. I pl

 Entry #1 October 13, 2018 This is my first day writing a journal or a summary of my day. If you are curious why I decided to become today, one of the reasons is I want to have something that reminds me every day that there is tomorrow comes after a hectic and stormy day. Also, I want to improve my writing. Since I became a student, I don’t have confidence in my writing, so this is my chance to improve it. I believe that “Practice makes perfect” is why I also do it. Back to the main reason my I am doing it. October 13, 2018, is a day that makes me realize that I want to become a writer, correcting a successful and professional writer that writes about her journey of becoming the successful woman she wants to achieve. That is why I am now trying to write my journal tonight. I hope to do it until I say I am halfway to becoming a writer. I remember that day also. I think my most busy day. After all, I didn’t have enough time to watch my Korean dramas list and answer some grammar questio

  19 years ago, I was a little girl who just wanted to play and do everything with my friends and family. I relied on them for most of my childhood days because I felt I couldn't stand alone. I didn't also know who I was at that time. I know that I am my name, but that's it. I don't know what I want to eat or wear. I always asked their opinion about me, and it became my reality. Growing up, I always knew I was ugly because they said you are ugly when you have black skin, so I always have that in my head. Whenever someone told me he had a crush on me, I didn't believe it and thought he was playing to my feelings. One time, I met this handsome guy because he had fair skin. He is popular in our school for that. It would never come to mind that he would approach me and tell me that he had a crush on me. At first, I ignored him because I knew he was playing and had an attitude of a playboy. Whatever he tells or does to me, I will never think of it romantically because I